the greatest pain

The greatest pain in life
is not to die, but to be ignored.
To lose the person you love so
much to another who doesn’t care at all.
To have someone you care so about so much throw a party…
and not tell you about it.
When your favorite person on earth
neglects to invite you to his graduation.
To have people think that you don’t care.
The greatest pain in life,
is not to die,
but to be forgotten.
To be left in the dust after another’s great achievement.
To never get a call from a friend,
just saying “hi”.
When you show someone your innermost thoughts and they laugh in your face.
For friends to always be too busy to console you when you need someone to lift your spirits.
When it seems like the only person who cares about you,
is you.
Life is full of pain,
but does it ever get better?
Will people ever care about each other,
and make time for those who are in need?
Each of us has a part to play
in this great show we call life.
Each of us has a duty to mankind
to tell our friends we love them.
If you do not care about your friends
you will not be punished.
You will simply be ignored…
as you have done to others.


During Patriots Day, Boston Marathon wad held. Runners went for the finish line to get a hug from their loved ones.

But a horrific tragedy happened. Twin bomn explosions shot through the sky, causinh more than a hundred injured and left 3 people dead, one of which is just an 8-year old child. Martin Richard was a mere spectator waiting for his father at the Finish Line but he died instead. Truly a heart-breaking scene.


Prayers for the victims, the fallen, the families affected, and to those who helped in this time of crisis.


Letting Go

Here’s a poem I wrote sometime ago (during my college years, actually, year 2000)



Sometimes, I wish we’d never met…
sometimes, i wish, things were easy to forget..
i wish i had to look the other way,
i wish i knew then what to say…

why did our paths have to meet?
why did you have to be so sweet?
why did my feelings have to grow?
and now, why do i have to let it go..

i hate myself for always thinking of you,
i hate myself for longing to be with you,
i hate myself for dreaming of things
which would never come true,
and i hate myself for supressing this feeling for you…

you don’t seem to see the little things i do,
and it only leaves me feeling blue..
you leave me hanging in the air,
trying to figure out if you really cared…

i’m not sure how you feel,
and i don’t know if what you show is real,
sadly i realize, magic spells aren’t true, you see..
and miracles never did happen to me…

So ‘d rather take my heart back
while it is still beating
and save my heartbeats while i still can
before it finally gets out of hand..

so please don’t blame me for the way i act,
i guess i haven’t accepted the fact…
i know now that it’s silly to wish you near,
but i wish you would have known,
that my emotions were real..

thanks for the time, thanks for the attention,
thanks for the things that i thought was affection,
i hope you remember me once in a while,
and wherever you go, always show your smile..

to let you go is not easy but i can try
but to say, i can forget you is a big big lie,
for no matter what i say,
and no matter what i do,
i know that i have to let you go,
even if i don’t want to.

an author to watch out for..

I usually spend my weekends reading pocketbooks, both paperbacks and hard-bounds. Sometimes, when I have extra time, I try surfing the internet with interesting sites and author pages. (My Kindle takes a rest every Saturday and Sunday.)

During the recent holidays, I did a little reflecting and read the Scriptures. Afterwards, I accessed various websites. I was pleased to inform you all that I have found a great aspiring author and a world traveler. Meet Tim Lewis and get to know more about him via his official website:

Through his page, you will also find some of his unfinished novels – thrillers, mysteries and fantasy (YA). I’ve read Assassins and Madmen and I was really impressed. I felt like I was in a crime scene and I am one of the characters who has access to the FBI and has the authority to issue a manhunt all over Lone Oak.

I also read a wonderful introduction to an Elven princess who returned to her castle after ten years in a monastery. Dragon’s Gate / Dragon’s Lair tells about Sarai and her journey going back home. There she met her wolf bodyguards and a dragon named Zuwon.

I admire Mr. Lewis’s writing. His pitch pulled me in. He flawlessly described the settings of his story, so vivid, that you can actually feel and see yourself immersed on that fantasy world he has created. Since Dragon’s Gate is only a few chapters finished, I believe a little more emphasis on the beginning or a quick reminder or flashback would have made it easier to understand where the lead character’s journey would take her. I would definitely like to know more about the wolves and the tragedy that took place in the castle.

Publishers, you might find a gem with Mr. Lewis. He needs to get published! I am telling you, he knows how to tell a story.

you and me

An anniversary is a time to celebrate the joys of today, the memories of yesterday, and the hopes of tomorrow.

A successful marriage requires falling in love many times, always with the same person. It’s so great to find that one special person you want to annoy for the rest of your life. Someone who’ll stand by you through all the trouble you wouldn’t have had if you’d stayed single.

And I am glad because that someone is you. I am thankful that I have been married to you for 8 years.. and counting more and more with you..

I love you Honey. Happy anniversary 🙂